Rediscovering the Pulse of Faith
A Wake-Up Call to Realign
I’ve been running on empty lately, pretending that everything is fine despite the stress and exhaustion. But last Sunday, my body, mind, and spirit came to a grinding halt, and I was forced to confront the reality of my depleted state. A flu virus had taken hold, leaving me drained and helpless. Even the simplest tasks, like breathing, felt like a monumental effort.
The Illusion of Self-Sufficiency
As I sat still for 12 hours, watching my wife Caroline take care of everything, I realized that my inner self was screaming for attention. The “canister of a being” that I am was crying out to be well, to be restored to its full potential. But I’ve never been good at being ill; I’d rather push through and keep going.
A Surprising Turn of Events
To my surprise, Monday brought a rapid recovery, and I was able to return to work in the afternoon. In the stillness of that morning, I wrote a song, pouring out my thoughts and emotions onto paper. As I reflected on the lyrics, I realized that God’s presence was palpable, like the freshness that follows a thunderstorm. His Spirit was pouring over my consciousness, reminding me of His power and love.
The Freedom to Worship
The song’s message was clear: I’m free to worship God whenever I choose, even in the midst of struggles and doubts. It’s easy to get distracted, to look elsewhere for answers, but that’s a recipe for disaster. Like Peter reaching out to Jesus in the stormy sea, I need to keep my eyes fixed on Him.
A Question of Motivation
So I ask myself: what drives my actions? Am I doing things for my own sake, or am I doing them for God? It’s a crucial distinction, one that can make all the difference in my walk of faith.
A Prayer of Surrender
Dear Lord, I thank You for the gift of words that allow us to connect with each other, even across distances and lifetimes. I’m grateful for Your patience with me, even when I’m too ashamed to run to You. Help me understand what is good, pleasing, and proper for You to reign in my life. Amen.
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